duit raya oh duit raya.. hahaha
yes, i do celebrate raya. and chinese new year and christmas :)
and i'm single :D yup broke up with my almost 5months boyfriend.
but its ait. me n him are cool. still texting with each other but differently now.
anyways, im bored. so took some pictures. next post!
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Saturday, September 12, 2009
I am who I am.
I am the person who her boyfriend wants her to be as girly as possible.
But the thing is, I love getting out some sweat, I love cars, I love ridding those GT bikes, I love skateboarding, I love hanging out at a mamak until 3am, I love jamming, i love rock music, I love camping, I love long walks, I wear sneakers, I wear Tshirts, I don't wear a lot of make-up, I laugh as hard as I can, I don't care if I look unlady-like, I fight like a guy,I followed karate,I followed fencing,I go hiking in the woods,I know how to drive a motorcycle,I walk like a guy sometimes,I punch people a lot,I act like a guy sometimes.
I do all these things may somehow make me seem like a guy. but thats just me. that is me. this is my personality. i can't change the way i am. i was born like this. i was born to learn self-defence. i was born to learn all these electrical things. i live my life without having a dad to take care of the house, the broken blub, to take care of my family. i admit that i am the guy in the house. and im not ashame being one. i still do girls stuff. i still love shopping. i still love hanging out with my girlfriends. i still love my boyfriend.
how could anyone see me as being one of their guy friend? i am not that ignorant to think myself as one of the guys. if u do wanna know about who i really am, well i just did. for 6 years i've been learning Karate and 2 years i learn it by myself just so i can defend myself from people trying to hurt me or my family. 1 year i learn fencing just so i know how to use a knife. for few times i've thought of being a police woman just so i know how to use a gun. don't say that i put my boyfriend on the 3rd part of my life just cause i can't put him on 1st. i love my family so much than i love my life. i would sacrifice my life for them.
so what if i know how to do guys stuff. i am still a girl who wants to be love by her boyfriend for who she is. never say never. never say you love the someone and promise you won't hurt her feelings. never say that you still love her but lost it somewhere after few weeks. never.
i was always there for you when u needed someone to listen. i was always there when u feel like u lose hope. i was always there when u can't make it on top. i was always there when u say u don't need me. i was always there when even u say u don't have feelings towards me anymore. i was always there when u thought i was invisible. i was always there when u weren't looking at me. i was always there when u look at other girls. i was always there when u thought i was not.
i never changed when u say i did. i never cheated when u asked me if i did. i never looked at other guys whenever ur not with me or with me. i never question your opinion. i never loved any guy as much as i love u. i never thought of breaking up with u whenever we had a fight.
so now what? u asked me. we need to solve this. u told me. i am so blurred. u told me that too. i still have feelings for u, u told me that. figure it yourself. i am at that stage where i am not to be taken for granted. i am not the person who wants to be taken advantage of. so know what? i ask u now. we need to solve this? i ask u. i am not blur at all. im telling u. but i still do have a lot of feelings towards u. but i have to ask, what am i to u? why can't u tell me the 1st thing that popped that feeling of yours towards me? why? figure that yourself.
But the thing is, I love getting out some sweat, I love cars, I love ridding those GT bikes, I love skateboarding, I love hanging out at a mamak until 3am, I love jamming, i love rock music, I love camping, I love long walks, I wear sneakers, I wear Tshirts, I don't wear a lot of make-up, I laugh as hard as I can, I don't care if I look unlady-like, I fight like a guy,I followed karate,I followed fencing,I go hiking in the woods,I know how to drive a motorcycle,I walk like a guy sometimes,I punch people a lot,I act like a guy sometimes.
I do all these things may somehow make me seem like a guy. but thats just me. that is me. this is my personality. i can't change the way i am. i was born like this. i was born to learn self-defence. i was born to learn all these electrical things. i live my life without having a dad to take care of the house, the broken blub, to take care of my family. i admit that i am the guy in the house. and im not ashame being one. i still do girls stuff. i still love shopping. i still love hanging out with my girlfriends. i still love my boyfriend.
how could anyone see me as being one of their guy friend? i am not that ignorant to think myself as one of the guys. if u do wanna know about who i really am, well i just did. for 6 years i've been learning Karate and 2 years i learn it by myself just so i can defend myself from people trying to hurt me or my family. 1 year i learn fencing just so i know how to use a knife. for few times i've thought of being a police woman just so i know how to use a gun. don't say that i put my boyfriend on the 3rd part of my life just cause i can't put him on 1st. i love my family so much than i love my life. i would sacrifice my life for them.
so what if i know how to do guys stuff. i am still a girl who wants to be love by her boyfriend for who she is. never say never. never say you love the someone and promise you won't hurt her feelings. never say that you still love her but lost it somewhere after few weeks. never.
i was always there for you when u needed someone to listen. i was always there when u feel like u lose hope. i was always there when u can't make it on top. i was always there when u say u don't need me. i was always there when even u say u don't have feelings towards me anymore. i was always there when u thought i was invisible. i was always there when u weren't looking at me. i was always there when u look at other girls. i was always there when u thought i was not.
i never changed when u say i did. i never cheated when u asked me if i did. i never looked at other guys whenever ur not with me or with me. i never question your opinion. i never loved any guy as much as i love u. i never thought of breaking up with u whenever we had a fight.
so now what? u asked me. we need to solve this. u told me. i am so blurred. u told me that too. i still have feelings for u, u told me that. figure it yourself. i am at that stage where i am not to be taken for granted. i am not the person who wants to be taken advantage of. so know what? i ask u now. we need to solve this? i ask u. i am not blur at all. im telling u. but i still do have a lot of feelings towards u. but i have to ask, what am i to u? why can't u tell me the 1st thing that popped that feeling of yours towards me? why? figure that yourself.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009
SPM IS IN 97 DAYS!!
SPM is like so close. 3 months time! dayem.
have to study real hard! less fooling around.
focus cintha FOCUS! can't go online that much anymore [as if i go online that much already].
no more distractions. no more outdoor activities.
next week is that last week i'll be busy with sport stuff and fashion show. hahaha.
this is a VOW! if i do not get 5 credit for my SPM or focus for SPM, i'm gonna go in form 6.
noooo!! hahaha.
but i'm still in love with my baby :D
2 week straight no fighting. cool! :D love him!
less singing lah :(
i just don't have the voice to sing that much anymore.
i miss my band. so much!
wonder how r they doing.
puasa is coming soon! sadly i can't puasa together with them.
gestrick crap.
anyways, here are the list of songs that are in my playlist now.
1. Beyonce - sweet dreams
2. Cobra Starship ft. Leighton Meester - good girls go bad
3. A Fine Frenzy - almost lover
4. Lady Gaga - again and again
5. Lady Gaga - poker face [acoustic]
6. No Doubt - don't speak
7. Zee Avi - honey bee
8. Zee Avi - bitter heart
9. Paramore - ignorance
10. Paramore - here we go again [acoustic]
11. Kanye West - heartbreak
12. Black Eyed Peas - I gotta feeling
13. Micheal Buble ft. Nelly Furtado - Quando Quando Quando
14. Kid Cudi - day and night
mostly that it. hahahaha. theres more but these are my pick for today :D
have to study real hard! less fooling around.
focus cintha FOCUS! can't go online that much anymore [as if i go online that much already].
no more distractions. no more outdoor activities.
next week is that last week i'll be busy with sport stuff and fashion show. hahaha.
this is a VOW! if i do not get 5 credit for my SPM or focus for SPM, i'm gonna go in form 6.
noooo!! hahaha.
but i'm still in love with my baby :D
2 week straight no fighting. cool! :D love him!
less singing lah :(
i just don't have the voice to sing that much anymore.
i miss my band. so much!
wonder how r they doing.
puasa is coming soon! sadly i can't puasa together with them.
gestrick crap.
anyways, here are the list of songs that are in my playlist now.
1. Beyonce - sweet dreams
2. Cobra Starship ft. Leighton Meester - good girls go bad
3. A Fine Frenzy - almost lover
4. Lady Gaga - again and again
5. Lady Gaga - poker face [acoustic]
6. No Doubt - don't speak
7. Zee Avi - honey bee
8. Zee Avi - bitter heart
9. Paramore - ignorance
10. Paramore - here we go again [acoustic]
11. Kanye West - heartbreak
12. Black Eyed Peas - I gotta feeling
13. Micheal Buble ft. Nelly Furtado - Quando Quando Quando
14. Kid Cudi - day and night
mostly that it. hahahaha. theres more but these are my pick for today :D
The good OLD days
The good old days :)
Grandpa with mom
Grandpa with uncle
mom following Unduk Ngadau. she's the middle one 
Beauty Pagent 
dad and mom 
sis and me. cute right? i look like a mouse :D 
idk how old was i 
me and my little friends :) Wednesday, July 22, 2009
TODAY WAS AWESOME!!!!!!
event: sports day SMK DPM 2009
time: 7am-4.30pm
venue: Stadium Komplex Penampang
involvement: THE WHOLE STUDENTS FROM DPM
time: 7am-4.30pm
venue: Stadium Komplex Penampang
involvement: THE WHOLE STUDENTS FROM DPM
it was soooo awesome. and now im like sooo tired. but theres more tomorrow! :D
had Equus[SLR camera] with me so took 500++ pictures. hahaha. i'll upload it soon ait :)
can't wait for tomorrow's day.
i didn't just spent the whole day with my friends and babe, did my 'funnest' hobby, TAKING PICTURES OF PEOPLE WITH THEIR 'MUKA SEMANGAT' WHILE THEY'RE RUNNING AND ECT. ECT.
People I was with the whole time:
-Kiko
-Darren@babe
-Cella
-Vien
-Edna
was with them today. they come and go as they please.
NOW
my legs are like hurting and I didn't even join anything.
"maybe because I was running those stairs -up and down-"
I'm like getting darker maybe cause of the sun and me going under it while taking pictures.
dayem.
well, will upload pictures sooooooon enough :)
maybe tomorrow. so get ready for LOTS and I mean LOTS of pictures :)
Cintha<3
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
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