yeah... i'm not myself. truth be told, i change a bit since my last relationship ended but dont get me wrong, its not because of him. well, maybe a bit. but still! i have no grudges on him! anyway, this is my blog and i am entitled to post whatever the hell i want. no one to stop me or ask me to delete. NO ONE I TELL YOU! so, i tried being very busy so i wont think about the past buuuutttt, i just can't get it out of my mind! damn u brain. so as i was saying, i kept on being busy and busy and more busy until my health got in the way and it was so obvious until i got 5kg off my weight. i looked skinny which was not bad but i got sick quite a lot. so i stop doing everything that i was doing for 3 days and that was not a big help because i've gotten miserable and seeing a lot of my friends like so in love with their boyfriends and girlfriends just made me wanna kill myself more. but then, for a whole day, i thought to myself that i'm going to be in a university soon and gonna meet a hell lot of cute+hot+nice+sweet guys so why waste time to think of one? right?? right!? i mean no offense, i love u and all but my brain just had to think about that. not my fault right? haha. yeah we're still cool. you know like we still text each other and call stupid names. i kinda like it that way but yeah, im still a girl, i still think about the past. but you know, everyone must move on right? so now, im still busy. running here and there. my schedule is like dammmnnn... and guess what, i think i got insomnia. haha. means that i can't sleep at night. i mean i can but im just not sleepy that fast. just this morning i slept at 5am or more cause i just can't sleep. haha. weird right? i heard my mom walking to the kitchen and i just smiled. haha.
dang i miss jamming. i miss singing my lungs off. now, all i can do is sing-a-long. damnit. i miss a lot of things. i miss highschool for sure!!! i miss the times where every morning we gather in the canteen and just wait for the bell to ring knowing that we have to face the teachers and just cant wait for recess. when i would always look at my watch and say that there's 20 minutes left on the clock until recess!! and always be 10 minutes late to go in the class. and knowing that it always is during maths class. knowing that the teacher is always late to get into class cause our class is on the top flour and just go to the next class and do jackass stuff. i soooo miss the time when everyone in my class sang together a song and got the next class teacher coming to my class just to shut us up just to know that we will be singing some more. i miss when i sing in class, they turn around and listen to me sing and when i sang a slow song which was I love you by Joanna Wang, some just sleep to the song i sang. i miss when me and my girlfriends played around with the whole class and just laugh it off. i miss when during exams, we would cheat and cover each other when we got into trouble. i miss every second of school. i miss my classmates. oh 2009, why do you have to past so fast. anyway, enough being emo. imma post some pictures~~ :)
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