Lines to say something

have you ever experience something so hurtful that you don't care? I am going through that and its killing me bits to pieces. Knowing something that you have doubt it already on Valentine's day sucks even more. Knowing that you love that someone but he loves another girl sucks even more. Yet, you still hold on to it. Damn. I don't feel appreciate at all. Its like everything I do is not worthy enough for him to remember. Nothing to remember him by, not even a gift to think back all the good times. Just the feeling of being used. 5 months coming to 6 months for now I think had waste my precious time just by being with him. I've sacrifice some things just for him yet he doesn't sees it. I'm just like a shadow beside him. Following where ever he goes, like a dog being drag. Am I doing the right thing of holding on? I'm having second thoughts right now. I've been patient for few weeks now. I've loyal ever since. I've never doubt you of anything, until now. Seriously, I feel like I was never appreciated in anyway. How can I be so blind? How can I let myself suffer? Should I still hold on to him? Makes me wonder what makes HER better. I know I'm not that pretty as other girls. Or as perfect for you. I'm just here to fill your emptiness. To make you happy. To love you and to treat you like something more then you can imagine. But, you won't let me. You never appreciate. I've been smiling in front of people saying that there's nothing wrong or I'm okay but the truth is, I'm not. Well find. If you like her so much, then be with her. I'm not gonna force you to love me even if you don't. But 1st, I'm gonna follow my friends advice. To give a week to notice what hell I'm going through now. And let him feel the same afterwords.