I am who I am.

I am the person who her boyfriend wants her to be as girly as possible.
But the thing is, I love getting out some sweat, I love cars, I love ridding those GT bikes, I love skateboarding, I love hanging out at a mamak until 3am, I love jamming, i love rock music, I love camping, I love long walks, I wear sneakers, I wear Tshirts, I don't wear a lot of make-up, I laugh as hard as I can, I don't care if I look unlady-like, I fight like a guy,I followed karate,I followed fencing,I go hiking in the woods,I know how to drive a motorcycle,I walk like a guy sometimes,I punch people a lot,I act like a guy sometimes.
I do all these things may somehow make me seem like a guy. but thats just me. that is me. this is my personality. i can't change the way i am. i was born like this. i was born to learn self-defence. i was born to learn all these electrical things. i live my life without having a dad to take care of the house, the broken blub, to take care of my family. i admit that i am the guy in the house. and im not ashame being one. i still do girls stuff. i still love shopping. i still love hanging out with my girlfriends. i still love my boyfriend.
how could anyone see me as being one of their guy friend? i am not that ignorant to think myself as one of the guys. if u do wanna know about who i really am, well i just did. for 6 years i've been learning Karate and 2 years i learn it by myself just so i can defend myself from people trying to hurt me or my family. 1 year i learn fencing just so i know how to use a knife. for few times i've thought of being a police woman just so i know how to use a gun. don't say that i put my boyfriend on the 3rd part of my life just cause i can't put him on 1st. i love my family so much than i love my life. i would sacrifice my life for them.
so what if i know how to do guys stuff. i am still a girl who wants to be love by her boyfriend for who she is. never say never. never say you love the someone and promise you won't hurt her feelings. never say that you still love her but lost it somewhere after few weeks. never.
i was always there for you when u needed someone to listen. i was always there when u feel like u lose hope. i was always there when u can't make it on top. i was always there when u say u don't need me. i was always there when even u say u don't have feelings towards me anymore. i was always there when u thought i was invisible. i was always there when u weren't looking at me. i was always there when u look at other girls. i was always there when u thought i was not.
i never changed when u say i did. i never cheated when u asked me if i did. i never looked at other guys whenever ur not with me or with me. i never question your opinion. i never loved any guy as much as i love u. i never thought of breaking up with u whenever we had a fight.
so now what? u asked me. we need to solve this. u told me. i am so blurred. u told me that too. i still have feelings for u, u told me that. figure it yourself. i am at that stage where i am not to be taken for granted. i am not the person who wants to be taken advantage of. so know what? i ask u now. we need to solve this? i ask u. i am not blur at all. im telling u. but i still do have a lot of feelings towards u. but i have to ask, what am i to u? why can't u tell me the 1st thing that popped that feeling of yours towards me? why? figure that yourself.